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Can I say that without crediting Nike?  Idk so I will be safe.  Thanks, Nike. 😛

But seriously… This is a lesson I have learned recently.  I have been waiting to post a blog until I had something worth typing that was longer than a couple of sentences.  But you know, sometimes you dont need to ramble to get the point across.  Man, it stinks that it took me 30 years to realize that!!  I wonder how many friends I have lost because I “talk too much.”

Back to the point…  I have found that in my life I have sometimes allowed myself to be stopped from doing what I believed was right.  Sometimes it was fear of failure, defeat or rejection.  Sometimes just worry stoped me.  A whole host of things have stopped me from doing what I believe I should.  But in reality, none of those things that stop me are from God!  I mean, sure, there is a time and a place for God to speak up and stop us from doing the wrong thing.  But you and I know that is not what I am talking about.

I am talking about those moments in time when the spirit moves within me and I tell Him, basically, to shut up.  When he pulls on my heart strings and says, “Go talk to that person.” or the recent one, “Go visit the sick and lonely.”  That is when Satan speaks up and we have a sort of conversation.  It goes something like this, for example:

Spirit: “Go visit the sick and lonley.”

Me: “Really?  Umm… okay.  What would I say?”

Spirit: “Don’t worry about details just go.”

Enter Satan who is never short of excuses and negativity.  “Nah.  You can’t do that.  What if they throw their bed pan at you?  What if they are mean?  What if they are super sick and you get sick and DIE!”

Sound dramatic?  Well that is pretty much how it goes.  For someone who struggles with fear, worry and anxiety this is pretty much a common conversation and a show-stopper for me!

SO what do I do when Satan speaks up?  I am learning to turn it over to the Spirit and let Him handle it.

Matthew 16:23 (NLT)

23 Jesus turned to Peter and said, “Get away from me, Satan! You are a dangerous trap to me. You are seeing things merely from a human point of view, not from God’s.”

That is how Jesus handled Satan.  The conversation I have with Satan could end something like this.

Me thru Spirit: “In the name of Jesus, get behind me Satan for you have in mind the things of man and I am doing the work of God.”

James 4:7 (NLT)

So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Stop trying to do it alone!  Stop trying to fight Satan alone!  God did not call us to be lonely warriors.  He called us to join HIS army!  (THAT is a whole different blog post! ^_^)

Put Simply:

If you find yourself stopped by your fears and failures.  If you find yourself struggling to overcome them to do what you believe is right.  Simply keep going.

It was Winston Churchill who said:

If you are going through Hell, keep going.

Lastly, I feel compelled to mention a Bible verse that runs through my head when I reflect on all this.  I love the book of James.  In James 4, it is written (NLT):

13 Look here, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we are going to a certain town and will stay there a year. We will do business there and make a profit.” 14 How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone. 15 What you ought to say is, “If the Lord wants us to, we will live and do this or that.” 16 Otherwise you are boasting about your own plans, and all such boasting is evil.

17 Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it.

That last verse just catches me.  I believe there is another place in the Bible that this is discussed but I am uncertain.  Feel free to comment.  I just wanted to bring up that if I feel compelled by God to do something and I do not do it, I am sinning.  Remember Jonah and Nineveh. 😉

Bear the following verses in mind next time you struggle to do what you believe is right, for whatever reason or excuse Satan gives you.

Proverbs 16:3 (NLT)

Commit your actions to the Lord,
and your plans will succeed.

Also:

Proverbs 3:6 (AMP)

In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths.

and finally:

Psalm 37:3-5 (NLT)

Trust in the Lord and do good.
Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.
Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you your heart’s desires.

Commit everything you do to the Lord.
Trust him, and he will help you.

God Bless you as you work to do His will.  More on that later. ^_^

❤  Supera Matris

I guess I did end up with a whole post when I only had one small thought. ^_^

WHEN I HIT PUBLISH it notified me that this is my 77th post.  As 77 is my FAVORITE number, I am celebrating!! ^_^

So my Mom, Susan, is now blogging which is cool.  But since I blogged first is that like daughter, like mother? Or the other way around? ^_^

Life has been super hectic but I am learning A LOT.  I have been thinking a lot about various blogs I could write but it is usually when I lay in bed at night and it is already late!

I am alive though, not that I have a ton of readers yet who were wondering.  I am planning to get back to blogging.  Readers or not I want to get out what I have to say.  Who knows who will read it someday?

I don’t know how many of you have played “The Sims”.  For those of you who haven’t humor me for a moment… In the game you choose a “Life Wish” for your Sim.  This “Life Wish” is their life-long goal.  It can be anything from reaching the top of the music career, to raising a family.  Once the Sim reaches their life-long wish that is it.  You just continue to play the game and have them go and do but to what end?  They’ve completed their goal.

I feel like I identify a bit with those Sims.  My life-long goal as a child was to 1) grow up. 2) Get married to my dream man (who I made a long, long list about), and 3) have children to raise and love.  So umm… I’m all grown up. I’m married and I have two beautiful children who I love dearly and continually work hard to raise.

Other such goals – stay with me here – were simple like “Own a nice house” or “buy that car I always wanted (a nice Toyota)”.  After moving once a year for seven years I have wanted to settle down somewhere in a house I enjoy that *I* pick out with a nice car that I enjoy and *I* pick out.  Other desires? Other than more materialistic desires that was about it. Until today.

I had an epiphany.  Where is the Lord?  Why did I want to grow up? So I could get married of course.  Why did I want to get married?  Well because I didn’t want to be alone and I wanted babies and every good Christian knows you have to get married to make babies!  Why did I want children? I don’t know.  As a kid it was this burning desire in my heart that stuck with me.  These goals were truly all I ever wanted out of life.  But where was God in all that.  Sure it started out with me as a child so I naturally wouldn’t consider God because hey, I’m just a kid!  But what about now?

So I got to thinking about that song…  Its an old church song that no one ever sings anymore except for maybe in the nice southern churches where they still sing the old hymns.  It’s about less of self and more of thee.  What’s it called? “None of Self and all of Thee’

  1. Oh, the bitter pain and sorrow
    That a time could ever be,
    When I proudly said to Jesus,
    “All of self, and none of Thee.”
    All of self, and none of Thee,
    All of self, and none of Thee,
    When I proudly said to Jesus,
    “All of self, and none of Thee.”
  2. Yet He found me; I beheld Him
    Bleeding on th’ accursed tree,
    And my wistful heart said faintly,
    “Some of self, and some of Thee.”
    Some of self, and some of Thee,
    Some of self, and some of Thee,
    And my wistful heart said faintly,
    “Some of self, and some of Thee.”
  3. Day by day His tender mercy,
    Healing, helping, full and free,
    Brought me lower while I whispered,
    “Less of self, and more of Thee.”
    Less of self, and more of Thee,
    Less of self, and more or Thee,
    Brought me lower while I whispered,
    “Less of self, and more of Thee.”
  4. Higher than the highest heaven,
    Deeper than the deepest sea,
    Lord, Thy love at last has conquered:
    None of self, and all of Thee.”
    None of self, and all of Thee,
    None of self, and all of Thee,
    Lord, Thy love at last has conquered:
    None of self, and all of Thee.”

 

So I realized.  For the past 28 years I have been living my life unintentionally for myself.  I wanted to get married. I wanted children.  Did I consult God on His will for my life?  Of course I believe God’s will was still done as I am a firm believer that God is in control of it all.  After all, I look back at my life and see His fingerprints everywhere.  I met my husband online and Presten wasn’t the first guy I met on there either.  I wanted to wait FIVE YEARS to have children, hoping to enjoy some married time before having kids.  When did I get pregnant? FIVE MONTHS! NO I do NOT believe that was coincidence. It was God doing His will over mine.

So now what? As a “Sim” I have fulfilled my life-long goal: to get married and have children.  Some might say, “Well, Duh, now you raise those children.”  Yes, of course.  I intended to.  I want to.  I love my kids and they are more than just a goal to me.  But what is my goal now?  What am I striving for?

I’m not sure how others feel about life goals but I believe it is important to have a goal – something you are striving for.  Be it to better yourself spiritually.  Or maybe to write the perfect novel.  Who knows?  But isn’t a life without a goal just a meandering, winding path leading nowhere?

So then part of me says, “Isn’t Heaven the goal?” Well yes, ultimately.  But what is my purpose here now?  Other than to raise my wonderful children why do I wake up in the morning?  Okay I know some of you are like, “Do you need any other reason?”  Forgive me if I sound negative or whatever but yes, I do.

My children are my sunshine.  They brighten each day.  Every kiss from them is pocketed away for the day when their kisses aren’t as freely given.  Every embrace is held tighter knowing that I do not know their fate.  Every time we have tickle time – their favorite game – I cherish those moments.  They are the “little wonders” of life that I will sit and think about in my old age.  My children are not only my “job” (as I stay home to raise them) but until today they were the reason I rose from my bed.  They are the reason I do the laundry – so they can be clothed.  They are why I cook and clean – to create a home for them.

But now I find myself wondering does God want me to do more than just raise my children.  And I do not mean just raise my children.  I mean, is their more to His plan for me?  What does He mean for me to be doing? 

Maybe I’m over thinking it.  But one thing I know for sure: I am done with being selfish and self centered in my goals.  What is a nice house or a nice car if I am not serving the Lord to my fullest capacity?  What is a beautiful life from the outside if on the inside it is devoid of God’s glory and purpose?

So now I intend to meditate and pray on what God’s will for my life is. I can be a mom and do the Lord’s work at the same time, you know.  Not to say that being a mom is not the Lord’s work. Man I hope I’m getting through here and not stepping on fellow stay at home mommas’ toes!!

Being a mom is a special calling and for some – maybe many or most – it is all the calling they need.  But for me I feel like God is pulling me to do something in addition to raising my children.  I just cannot figure out what that something is.  Whatever it is, I will involve my children as much as possible so they can help me serve the Lord in that capacity.

Questions, Comments and Curse words are welcome… well maybe the curse words arent welcome but I’ll take them any way! Smile with tongue out

Super Mama Maggie

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